Photograph of an Edmonton Morning From the Tip of the River Valley
Well, I have been trying to keep busy lately, and seem to be doing well. As many may know, I moved into my own apartment from a group home three months ago. There are a lot of things that seem to be going really well. I have just about finished my very first University course, Humanities 101 which has been great. We have gone over a lot of different information from a visit to the University’s Observatory to a special class with a drama instructor. In many ways, I feel it has helped me not only get back into the groove that I used to enjoy so much about school, but it has also helped me to sharpen my critical thinking skills. The main problem right now is that I am feeling a little isolated not having roommates around to talk to or bounce ideas off.
There have been a lot of really good things going on, though. My friend Richard Van Camp, who is a bestselling author and film producer seems to have found me a publisher for my latest short story collection. After a few final edits, I will be sending my manuscript off likely early next week. There are a few other really great pieces of news in my life, one is that the Edmonton Public Library has chosen to spotlight me as a writer in 2017 for three months, likely in the second or third quarter of the year. They will have me plan two events and advertise me on their website among other cool stuff. And then I will also be facilitating a writing class in the New Year, possibly more than one of them. I think that will be just about all I will be able to handle.
At the moment I am nursing a sore back, and I took some muscle relaxants to help me deal with it. I had hoped the pills would help me sleep but they don’t seem to be working that way. I am having so much trouble sleeping that I am near to the point of asking for sleeping pills, but I have found that sleeping pills affect a person’s memory and that is something that is just about essential to my writing. There are more options, I have tried to exercise more but it seems that can make me sleep less. Among the other options is to eliminate naps and cut off caffeine at a certain time. These strategies have worked for me before, but when you live alone it can be difficult to follow routines. I guess I am a bit worried that moving out was a mistake, but there really were a lot of useless rules in the place I came from. I still get a little support day to day from the staff at the building I moved into, it often becomes easy though to fall into the trap of just not leaving the house. I have been combatting that by taking extended long walks for groceries or to malls and other errands. The result is that I feel better in general, but my feet and back seem to be taking kind of a pounding. I thought I would like to walk to a medical clinic in the morning to see about getting something for my back and maybe some advice on sleep remedies but walking four miles for something like that seems almost self-defeating.
One thing that is good is that I seem to have been getting out enough to keep my social skills in order. Yesterday I gave a presentation for the Schizophrenia Society and it seemed to go really well. I enjoy that job a lot, it is just about the perfect thing for me. I go out to a school or meeting place, talk for half an hour and get paid for three hours. It is hard to have been used to the money I made setting up stages but that job was taking a toll on me.
Something that has been on my mind is my brother, the musician/chef/philosopher. He had a herniated disc in his back that needed surgery and is in terrible pain and now a doctor has told him he may have another herniated disc. The first surgery was awful, he had to wait six months and could do almost nothing the whole time, it really kills me to see him in so much pain. Sometimes all a person can do is keep a smile on their face and pray, though.
So I don’t really know what coping skills I gave any of you today. I have been finding that meditation has been pretty helpful in me keeping my head screwed on straight. I would like to go back to going to mass, I don’t know what has been keeping me from it. All in all, actually, things are as good as could be expected. I have a birthday coming next week and I am going to spend it with friends, I don’t really need to worry much about having things to do or money for food or anything. I still find myself a little worried and a little sad at times. I suppose nothing can ever be perfect. I apologize that there is no poem for today, I haven’t felt much like writing poetry. I should get down to some though since I will be teaching how to write it again soon. Take care dear readers, and say a prayer for my brother if you have the strength.