I am hoping tomorrow will be a good day. It has been kind of an incredible week, I met with my friend, mentor, editor and life coach Richard Van Camp and made a decision that I want to try and interview him for The National Post. I spoke to the right editor and sent off a proposal, now I just have to wait and hope. As some may know, soon I am going to start my new job going around to schools and other groups and talking about my experiences with mental illness, and so I put in an order for another printing of my books, “Inching Back to Sane” and “Through The Withering Storm” which is going to set me back close to $1,000.00. I put the books on my Dad’s credit card and can’t believe he isn’t going to kill me.
Another big milestone has come my way, I have received copies of my third poetry book, “Stargazer: My Life In Constellations” which was a title Richard picked out for me. I have even sold two copies already. In January I want to synchronize a mention about my new book in the St.Albert Gazette with a book signing at Chapters book store in St.Albert. It was such a cool experience last time I did it, meeting the parents of one of my brother’s first girlfriends and my elementary school enrichment teacher. When I met with Richard yesterday at a diner we frequent (Route 99 on 87 avenue and 99 street, Edmonton) I was putting business cards into books and a waitress asked me what the books were for. She seemed really surprised that I had written these and told me it is her life’s ambition to become a writer, she has even written a few unpublished books herself. She bought two of my “Inching Back to Sane” books off me, one for herself, one for her mom, and I was really happy about it. I always think it is a cool thing to help other writers in any way I can, so if anyone out there reads this and wants any writing advice, feel free to drop me an email at email@example.com and I will be as helpful as possible.
Soon Christmas time will be here and on Boxing Day my sister and niece are coming. It should be all kinds of fun, I have this feeling that one day my niece will become a writer. She reads all kinds of books and last time she was here she wrote a short story and I know she has been writing poems. It’s a lot of pressure to put on a 10 year-old so I’m going to wait until she gets a bit older and just give her gentle directions as to how awesome it can be to write.
Aside from all that, I am just happy to be alive. I may be broke after this book order, but if I work hard I can sell a lot of those books and I will have that extra few bucks here and there. Richard told me that he has spoken to a publisher who is looking at a young adult novel I wrote and though there is no solid news, the squishy news (that my manuscript is making the rounds with the editors) is good. Other than that, I don’t have much more to say. Scroll down past the below photo for today’s poem, and please feel free to email me or comment.
In the darkest times of my young life
I had wished for a lover, wished for a wife
But one can’t find a mate when they aren’t whole
And people can tell when you’re just half a soul
Are you worried that you are sad and hurt deep down?
Does it get worse when other people are around?
A lot of us have gone through all this
And made it past it all to our first love, first kiss
Love will find your lonely heart, don’t doubt one bit
Just remember: you can’t dance if you forever sit
I let so much time slip by when I was a kid
It makes me feel regret even now that I did
I had to choose between being loved or being tough
I was relieved to learn that love is enough
When two people who care truly unite
It means little that they part, less when they fight
All that matters is what is in your heart
Making the one you love your best friend is the perfect start
For some of us love has been around for quite a while
You will hear some of these folks joke around, laugh and smile
But the truth is a soul mate is one for life
If they care enough and can weather all the strife
December 18, 2014